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I Want to be a Unicorn, a Boy one.

I describe my childhood-self in two words: Space Cadet. Every moment when my immediate and full attention was not required I would go off in my own world. I had a difficult time with bullying that manifested in ways such as hiding in the bathroom during math class only to be found, ten minutes later, by my teacher while skidding gleefully across the slippery floors in my puppy slippers.

There was even a phase in my young life when I had a couple of friends who would also join me on my fifteen-minute escapades around the park at recess. In full form, our troupe would consist of a tawny owl, a bear, and a black Unicorn with flaming mane and tail. I was the heavy metal Unicorn, and not only did I go for the most flamboyant of the animals but I always insisted that I was a boy-Unicorn. There were a few arguments about whether it was possible to be a boy-Unicorn or if Unicorns were boys and Pegasus’s were girls. I always won with the wise 9-year-old argument that Unicorns were boys because of the phallic horn on top of their heads. I also wanted to have Pegasus wings, but at that time we were not aware of hermaphrodites and I had to settle with the exclusively male Unicorn anatomy. If Disney had been a little more graphic then it would have saved us a lot of time and energy.

This was not where the story ended. I would also make-believe that I was White Fang, the famous folklore wolf (also male), and I had an inexplicable crush on the cartoon fox Robin Hood from that children’s animated film.

I had been unable to dissect this strange tendency towards the male until fairly recently. I tried to theorize that I am really a gay man in a woman’s body but the truth is I enjoy having my lady parts too much for this to be true. When I was 9 I called myself a tomboy. This is also no longer true since I have finally moved past traditional conceptions of male and female thanks to university and living in a modern age with a few good female role models. Now I can happily walk around in a shirt and pants discussing how I would like to have a penis for a day (or week) just to satisfy my curiosity without fear of being judged as sexually confused.

Going through the thick library of childhood photo albums, I can find at least three photos where I was playing the groom in a make-believe marriage. I had three wives, one of them being my own sister and all of them wearing the same dress. For the first time in my life, I wore a real wedding dress in summer 2013 for a bridal photo shoot. I realized I have never once fantasized about having a white wedding dress.

I finally found out the answer to my strange male-fascination by changing my question. It turned out not to be why I wanted to be a boy, but rather why I did not want to be a girl. In my years of physical self-discovery and the social training institute called ‘school’, I was surrounded with kids classified by ideal girls, ideal boys, and the weirdos who fit somewhere in the middle. The girls wore the right clothes, colors, experimented with makeup, and ran away laughing from the boys who tried to kiss them… The boys wore the right clothes, played the right sports, and ran away screaming from the girls who tried to kiss them, alienating them and making them question themselves for wanting to kiss just as much as the boys. Outside of this, there was also the whole world of new media, advertising, and Disney, reinforcing these gender stereotypes that I’m sure we’re all aware of. To be honest I’m tired of hearing about it, but I keep hearing about it because it’s still true.

Don’t get me wrong; I had no problem with girly things. I liked girl’s clothes and I often played with Barbies and horses but I still wanted to be a boy.

In my housing society, there was a group of boys with whom I played street hockey and other games. Kick-the-can, water gun fights, and Nintendo-64 were also some of our favorites. I was the only person of the female gender in the gang, and I was intent on making sure the boys treated me like one of their own. I became a tomboy because I wanted to partake in the same games as them, and it was almost a perfect plan.

I remember one day the boys decided to wrestle. They all partnered up and nobody wanted to wrestle with me. I couldn’t understand why, because unlike the kids in school, my neighborhood boys had never excluded me from anything. At first the argument was that I was girl, but after I became very upset, a short blond boy admitted it was because I was bigger than half of them. Being big and being a girl were my two tender spots, so I punched that boy in the eye and went home very proud of myself but also very angry.

On the other hand, the girls around me were very fond of playing house and that was all well and fine except that I wanted to play the husband. If I was ever asked to be a princess or a wife or a helpless kitten, I flat-out refused to cooperate and be a good playmate. I would then turn into a heavy metal Unicorn and obliterate everyone and everything girly. I think what got to me was the image of the soft hands of the princess trapped in the castle, gingerly lifting the teacup with the pinky finger raised and waiting to be rescued. For some reason, being female had already become associated with being powerless. Whether or not my girl friends enjoyed this feeling of being girly and being rescued, I sensed that it wasn’t for me and decided to act like I was a boy at every possible moment. It empowered me to jump over trees, build forts in the forest, punch a kid in the face, and wear hats in ways they were never made to be worn (like a backwards baseball cap, or the classic sideways, upside down visor). To my child-mind, these things would not possible for a girly girl to do.

Remotely related side story: I was a nail-biter, and to convince me to stop biting my nails my mother had to tempt me with the reward of a remote-control monster truck if I didn’t bite for 6 weeks. It was the only thing that worked since I wasn’t excited enough by the thought of having long, pretty painted nails.

Even now that I am all grown up and can dabble in both ends of the gendered behavior scale without fantasizing about Unicorns and wolves, I come across this perception almost every day. My men’s dress shoes are cool, but my high heels are hot. Somehow, wearing men’s clothing adds a new facet to my personality, while a dress just makes me look good unless it is unusually funky. Again, this is all just how I’ve been trained to perceive it and I can get past it all now as I’m sure many of you readers do as well but I hope you are getting my point.

Of course you might not really care. It’s all just a matter of how important these things are to you. As a child, I didn’t succumb to fitting in one gender or the other and suffered through the bullying until being a tomboy became cool when Avril Levine became famous. However, I like to think that if people had been more open to the idea of girls and boys being similar in taste and behavior, life could have been a lot easier for myself and numerous other children. Also, let’s take a moment and empathize with all the grown-ups who continue to live their lives according what they believe they should be, rather than who they are.

Being a human includes so many interesting and sometimes taboo aspects of our psyches that we should always feel free to explore them in some way that is safe. Whether they are our dark sides, our masculine or feminine sides, or our completely unmentionable sides, we should all feel empowered to explore them without fear of social alienation.

Unicorns can have wings too.

Bollywood Unmasked: The Director’s Chair

Today I have a guest article published in The Director’s Chair online magazine, an online E-Zine with Film Directing Tips, Film Making Articles and Online Resources for the Independent Filmmaker.

Bollywood Unmasked: The Real Potential of BC Film and Media Collaborations with India

In the five months I have spent researching the Indian film industry, I learned that there is huge potential for more film and media related business between British Columbia and India. With a grant from Western Economic Diversification (WED), I went to India twice with the SFU India Initiative to look for ways to increase ties with BC and the Indian film industry.

With no previous knowledge of India and coming from a Scottish-Canadian background… Click here to continue reading

 

A big thank you to Peter D. Marshall for the opportunity.

The Biannual Existential Crisis

So I went back in time last week. I drank Jack Daniels and watched the remake of Evil Dead.

I got home from the theatre before midnight. My mother and her boyfriend were out at a friend’s house for dinner and weren’t home yet.

I still live in the same house I was born in. Twenty-three years last week.

I was tipsy and not ready to crawl into bed all alone. My horoscope said that today (Saturday) was supposed to put my life onto a new trajectory and so far it hadn’t been fulfilled. Perhaps that was what propelled me to change into hiking pants and my raincoat and venture out into my suburban neighbourhood in the middle of the night. I had not completed my destiny for the day and I like to check things off my to-do list.

Actually, that’s how Starbucks hooked me into their points scheme. One more purchase and I’ll have a Gold Card. I like to achieve goals.

I’m an over-achiever.

So I find myself walking into the night with my iPhone, keys to the house, and a Fudgesicle (yes, a chocolaty popsicle). It’s raining and dark, and I’m hoping to have some kind of epiphany before the album I’m listening to finishes.

Private music should be illegal. Wasn’t there a time when you could only listen to music in a crowd? When I put on my headphones, all of a sudden the world revolves around only me and I get cocky as fuck, self-absorbed, and emotional.

I am walking around my elementary school and I remember how I had my heart broken by my Internet lover at fifteen. I had put on my running shoes on a dark and rainy night like this and after running for ten minutes I sat down on the swings and cried my heart out. I knew I had to break up with this boy because he treated me like garbage and made me so insecure I still feel the repercussions now, twelve years later.

I finish my Fudgesicle and toss the stick into the grass. It’s biodegradable I’m sure. Only problem is that it’s not a diet Fudgesicle… I’m used to eating these 40 calorie things and my mom accidentally bought the full-180 calorie version.

Well, we can’t waste food or else children in Africa will die. So I eat the extra calories and tell myself I’m burning it off by being outside.

I’m at the gravel field where the majority of my memories of being bullied as a child occur. Being human is a ridiculous thing, isn’t it? On the far end of the school I see a guy who looks like someone I used to go to school with. He stands by himself in front of a classroom; the ground is littered with beer cans.

At ten years old I was given a large (one-meter) blow-up ball for my birthday. I took it to school to show off and try to make friends. The girls who had been bullying me offered to play with me and kicked the ball out-of-bounds on purpose. They told me to go get it, but when I got back onto the school grounds I found the girls with a duty-aid (an adult supervisor) waiting for me. I was sent to the principal’s office for breaking the rules and my ball popped soon after.

However, the day I arrived at school with homemade stilts nobody bothered me.

At the far end of the field, I remember that we had this thing called the Kilometer Club. Student’s were encouraged to get fit by running around the field, and every four laps we would get a popsicle stick which said we had run a kilometer.

I pull out my iPhone and open my Jog Log app. I start the app and begin walking around the field. I didn’t quite believe that four laps around this mini-field was actually a kilometer.

Three-quarters through the first lap I find a small air-filled ball. I reach down and push on it… it’s flat. Still, I kick it and it goes rolling to the other end of the field. I chase after it and kick it around another two laps.

I lose the ball somewhere in the dark corner by the goal posts. I complete my 4th lap and my iPhone tells me I walked 0.92 Kilometers.

Not quite a Kilometer then.

Am I having an existential crisis again? I thought I went through this 6 months ago… It seems I have to go through this on a biannual basis.

I smile as I remember my last epiphany.

I was in South Africa and reminded myself how I was just a mass of atoms, floating around aimlessly and not actually separated from the rest of the world. I had finished a depressing book about The Emergency in India and couldn’t shake the blues. I went for a run and found myself staring at a pod of Southern Wright Whales frolicking at Muizenberg beach. I thought, “why do I have to be a human being? Why can’t I just go play with those whales and not worry about anything but food and predators?”

Then I remembered high school science class. The whales are a bunch of atoms, the water is another bunch of atoms, and the air and my body are other bunches of atoms. There is nothing disconnecting me from nature and the universe except my own stupidity.

“Being human is a ridiculous thing, isn’t it? “

I tweet this, and then I post it on Facebook too because I want to make sure everyone knows I’m having deep thoughts.

I walk through the trails connecting cul-de-sacs with forest and more cul-de-sacs. I go through a path I had never tried before because I never had time to explore it. Turns out that it connects to a road I was familiar with, and is actually a short cut that I had missed for twenty-three years.

The trail is a loop and I end up back at the playground where I cried when I was fifteen… and many times before that I’m sure.

There is a hill where all the students used to toboggan when we were lucky enough to have snow. I lie down on the wet grass and find that I only have three songs left on the album.

The water soaks through my pants and I lie and squint at the purple sky, my vision ringed with the tops of pine trees. I open my mouth and try to catch the rain on my tongue.

It seems to fall everywhere on my face except for my tongue. I stick my tongue out further.

The music fades, and I imagine what it might be like if some kids came up onto the hill and found me lying there, splayed out like a dead person with their tongue sticking out.

I’m too good-looking to be doing weird shit like this.

I stand up and start to walk home. I’m feeling alone and dejected, but I’ve had some sort of catharsis. I look at the other end of the park and the guy with the beer cans is gone. A group of teens walk up the path and are overtaken by some late-night jogger in neon shorts.

Just as I reach the gates to my housing community, I see my mother’s boyfriend’s car pull up. What are the chances of that? Here I am, moping around in the rain like some loner and I can’t even get the peace and quiet of an empty house?

The car window rolls down and I hear my mom asking if I have a key. I open the gate and they drive in.

So it doesn’t even matter how much I want to be alone in this world. No matter what I do, I’m connected. A mass of atoms connected with another mass of atoms.

The only thing keeping me from the rest of the world is my own stupidity.

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BC Film, Tourism, and India Post-TOIFA

For the last three months I have been working to develop ties between the Indian and BC (British Columbian) film industries. I have written about the research I did on the Indian film industry in previous blogs and talked about the potential areas for collaboration in another. I was back in India with the SFU India Initiative fund again in January, but this time I wanted to accomplish something more result-oriented because the Times of India Film Awards (TOIFA) was coming to Vancouver.

The TOIFA is essentially a tourism package deal between the Times of India group and the BC Government. The details were that the BC Government would pay roughly 10 million dollars (one third of the cost) to host the first year of the Times of India Film Awards. In exchange, the province would see an increase in Indian tourists by getting promotion in the Times of India media as a business and tourism destination for one year, and having the stars of Bollywood come to Vancouver and tweet about their experience. (The actual deal is a bit more refined but this is what I know).

This seemed like a great idea for everyone and the deal was signed in December 2012. Unfortunately for the Christy Clark, leader of the BC Liberal party and Premier, the Vancouver press conference on January 19th fell in the same week that Wayne Bennett from the BC film industry started the Save BC Film campaign. Save BC Film is an awareness campaign that started because of the decline of business in the Vancouver film industry caused by competing tax incentives in eastern Canada. The goal is to lobby the politicians of the BG government to increase tax incentives to a competitive rate to prevent the decay of the Vancouver film industry and the loss of jobs, and also to raise public awareness of the importance of the industry for BC’s economy so that voters support the industry.

The announcement of TOIFA enflamed the Vancouver film industry, because the Liberals said that they could not afford to “subsidize” the Vancouver film industry – showing a complete misunderstanding of the tax credit system. Tax credits give a production a rebate on a percentage of the money they spend in the province. If there are no productions coming to shoot, the province is actually losing about 1.8 billion dollars in revenue/year. When the government announced the TOIFA, members of the BC film industry felt that the liberals were prioritizing getting the South-Asian voting community on their side in time for the elections in May over saving 25,000 BC jobs.

TOIFA Launch in Vancouver

TOIFA Vancouver Press Conference on January 19th

Save BC Film

The Save BC Film campaign

 The BC-India Film & Media Initiative

The TOIFA controversy exploded while I was in India, and it was at about this time that I teamed up with Jamshed Mistry, an entertainment lawyer who was also the negotiating lawyer for TOIFA. Jamshed and I have both been keen to increase the relationship between the BC and Indian film industries since we met in November 2012 at Vancouver’s South Asian Film Festival. We decided to organize a roundtable discussion in Mumbai to brainstorm with Indian and BC film and media executives to find ways for the two industries to collaborate. Here is an excerpt from the invitation we sent out:

“Our Aim is to identify key benefits and opportunities, and to discuss/implement solutions to increase trade, coproduction, and investment between the British Columbian and the Indian film & media industries.”

Thanks to support from ICBC (Indo-Canadian Business Council) and Whistling Woods International, we held the roundtable on March 1st without any personal expense. Here I will mention that although SFU’s India Initiative grant was paying for my expenses, Jamshed and I were organizing the event on a voluntary basis.

The roundtable was attended by 16 invitees including Manoj Gursahani (Bollywood Tourism), Kiren Shrivastav (Molecule), Mannu Sandhu (Actress), Kavita Sharma (BC Trade and Investment), JD Majethia (AMPTPP), Sophy Vsivaraman (Indian Documentary Foundation), Michelle Poulin (Canadian Vice Consul), Rajesh Nair (Mukta Arts), Pawan Gil (Director), Patricia Gruben (Praxis), and Mel D’Souza (Bang Bang Films).

There was a presentation on Vancouver and the current tax incentives as well as a mention that the Indo-Canadian Coproduction treaty is still unsigned and that we were looking to search for alternative ways to work around it.

BCFMI Roundtable Discussion, March 1st at Whistling Woods International, Mumbai

BCFMI Roundtable Discussion, March 1st at Whistling Woods International, Mumbai

The discussion began with talking about the setbacks and challenges already encountered when Indian productions have come to BC and vice versa. The largest problem is the difference in how each industry produces films. The India film industry has a set hierarchy when shooting based on an apprentice-type system while Vancouver films work with the traditional western system of assistants. The roundtable concluded that this difference would be surmountable if there is more interaction and exposure between the industries. The other significant problem the roundtable reached is the cost of production and labor being much more in Vancouver.

This brought the discussion to tax incentives and a conference that is held annually in India called “Locations”. The Locations Conference is a meeting of Indian filmmakers and other countries who would like to have an increase in Indian tourism and film business. It is based on a concept, backed up with facts by Sudhanshu Hukku, that popular Indian films with stories shot in foreign locations significantly increase the amount of Indian tourism. Tourism boards, governments, and production companies come to India and present their locations along with incentive packages, and they meet with Indian filmmakers and negotiate individual deals such as Ek Thaa Tiger, a Salman Khan blockbuster of a film produced by Yash Raj Films. Tourism Ireland and The Irish Film Commission 2012 shared almost 30% of the production costs.

The roundtable discussed many other potential areas of collaboration as well. For example, the Indian Television industry is growing even more rapidly than film with 15.5% just last year and the audience is also growing internationally. JD Majethia, head of the Association of Motion Pictures & T.V. Program Producers (AMPTPP) suggested that B.C. tourism also create relationships with Indian television channels to produce a series of television episodes in British Columbia to increase the visibility of B.C. as a tourism destination and service industry.

Animation, VFX, and Gaming are also huge areas where BC and India have their own strengths. Prime Focus Films is an great example of an Indian VFX production company which has a branch in Vancouver and is drawing upon the talent in in BC as well as in India. Along with an exchange of talent, there is also a huge demand for film education in India that is up to Western standards. Film or animation student exchanges as well as faculty could not only give Indian film students an exposure to Western film education, but also give BC students exposure to the Indian industry and methods of production.

Documentaries are shot in India all the time but seldom ever see an Indian audience. Documentary production and distribution is also a large area where BC and India can collaborate.

Finally, the discussion also focused on the wealth of Indo-Canadian stories which could be made into films. Almost every Indian I met had a relative in Vancouver or Toronto, proving that the ties between the countries run deeper than just business. The huge amount of untapped story material also leads into new markets for distribution. There is not a lot of potential for making Indo-Canadian films for an Indo-Canadian audience, but there is a huge potential to make films for a global audience.

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Some BCFMI Roundtable Attendees. Left to Right: Jamshed Mistry, Michelle Poulin, Pawan Gill, Liz Cairns, Manoj Gursahani, Patricia Gruben, Rontu Basu, Kiren Shrivastav, Kavita Sharma, Apurva Mehta, and Sophy Vsivaraman.

The Roundtable Conclusions and Action Plan

The roundtable concluded that there are many opportunities for collaboration between the BC and Indian film industries that can be beneficial to both parties. However, to first take advantage of these opportunities, BC film and media must become more visible to the Indian industry and markets through increased films shot in BC, and an awareness of BC talent and expertise that comes with increased exposure and closer relationships.

The roundtable came up with five needs in order to improve the relationship between BC and India film and media.

  • Across-the-board tax incentives to increase shooting in BC
  • More awareness of BC as a location in India
  • Promotion of Indo-Canadian stories for coproductions
  • Consistent long-term Government strategy to increase relationship between Indian and BC film industries
  • More Lawyers and Production Consultants aware of the differences between the industries

The Full Roundtable Minutes are viewable here: BC-India Film and Media Roundtable Minutes

The next steps were up to Jamshed and me to present our findings to the government in such a way that would be beneficial not only for the film industry, but the province as a whole. The method was clear: Indian film and Indian tourism are so closely related that there is a Locations Conference based on it. If the goal of the Times of India Films Awards is to increase Indian tourism, then increasing tax incentives for Indian productions is a certain way to achieve it and support the BC film industry.

I wrote up a report that Jamshed Mistry emailed directly to Christy Clark. The report outlined the roundtable conclusions and showed how increasing tax incentives could increase Indian tourism. It also suggested that the government take advantage of TOIFA to encourage film production. Here is the total list of suggested activities from the roundtable:

  • Tour of the BC film industry and promoting the location, industry, and stories for selected TOIFA guests
  • Promotion of Indo-Canadian stories at TOIFA
  • BC Government increasing tax incentives
  • BC Tourism to develop deals with Indian film and television producers
  • Promotion of BC at FICCI Frames
  • Promotion of BC at Locations Conference
  • Promotion strategy in India by BC government
  • Delegates of Indian directors and producers to BC

A copy of the actual report can be found here: BCIFMI Report

Unfortunately, there was no response from the BC government. TOIFA came and went with only a BC-India Film Networking lunch organized by BC Trade and Investment (who were present at the roundtable). Also the head of Vancouver-based Praxis Center for Screenwriters and roundtable participant, Patricia Gruben, managed to organize a screening of Gauri Shinde’s “English Vinglish” with the writer/director giving a Q&A period to the public for free. So despite the lack of government initiative, the BC-India Film & Media Initiative roundtable did have some indirect success in creating awareness of BC in the Indian film industry, and TOIFA did grab the eyes of both nations.

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Jamshed Mistry speaking at the BC-India Film Networking lunch at the Pan Pacific, April 5. John Dippong facilitated the discussion also including Arjun Sablok and Eva Schmieg.

Gauri Shinde speaking to the public after a free screening of English Vinglish, April 5th

Gauri Shinde speaking to the public after a free screening of English Vinglish, April 5th. Patricia Gruben is on the far right.

The key here is not to focus on TOIFA anymore and to look to the future. TOIFA can now only be discussed in BC for a political purpose, so now the government and the industry should look for ways to move the BC-India film relationship forward post-TOIFA.

With the huge wealth of potential projects and exchanges between BC and India, the first action that must be taken is to make a long-term strategy to increase awareness of BC as a viable film industry in India and of Indian film as an important industry for BC to work with. To create this awareness there must be contact, and to create contact there must be an incentive. Essentially, the first thing the BC government must do is increase the production tax incentives to compete with Ontario’s 25% back on total spend. It doesn’t even need to match it, but it should be close. BC’s film industry has enough incentives on its own to draw business once the cost can be justified.

 

Read more about my research in my previous blogs!

The India Initiative and Solutions for the BC Film Industry

Mounties in Mumbai: A Crash Course on the Indian Film Industry and Opportunities for BC

Mounties in Mumbai

The following post is a long and detailed account of my experience researching the Indian film industry on my first trip to India in May 2012. It was a 15-page article I was hoping to get published somewhere, but since I have this blog now I can just post it here. I originally wanted to post it in sections but decided that since it makes sense chronologically it wouldn’t be a good idea to split it up. It has been organized by location, starting with Vancouver, then Chennai, Mumbai, Pune, Hyderabad, then Chennai again before the  conclusion. Read on if you are curious about the Indian film industry, and our experience learning about it.

Click here to read a shorter version with references to the current state of the BC Film industry.

“Mounties in Mumbai”

Two Students’ Discovery of the Indian Film Industry, and Where Canadian Coproduction Potentials Lie 

On a cold February day, I checked my email and saw a message with the subject “Internships in India this coming summer”. Excited, I opened it up to find that the project was with a 3D animation company, but unfortunately required that the student have animation experience. Having no experience myself, I gave up hope and India became a distant dream once again.

Two months later, I had a change of heart. I dug up the old email, and asked if the position was still available. Patricia Gruben, the head of Praxis Center for Screenwriters and SFU professor, replied and let me know that she would take my C.V. but that the interviews were starting the next day. Patricia was not actually involved in the internship program but was asked to find candidates because of her experience in India as well as her involvement with the film department. I came to the interview, stated my travel experience and what I did in the film program, and got one of the two positions available. I have focused on writing, directing, and sound design, and my classmate Sara Blake, who also applied and got the job, specializes in writing and cinematography.

As it turned out, the 3D animation gig had fallen through. At this point Patricia was trying to set up an internship for us in Chennai at IIT Madras with Aysha Iqbal, a film appreciation professor organizing a summer workshop. Other than this neither Patricia, Sara nor I had any idea what we were going to do in India for the rest of the summer. An appointment was made for us to meet the mastermind of the SFU Initiative program, Navinder Chima, and find out what on earth the program was and what was going to happen.

In a nutshell, the SFU India Initiative is a program with the goal of increasing collaboration between Canada and India. With generous support from Western Economic Diversification Canada, SFU sends students to India to be immersed in the industry that corresponds with their studies. Focusing on mobility programs and projects that support the clean energy, life sciences, new media and film sectors, they are given money for expenses ranging from plane tickets to food, and they typically intern with an Indian company for a minimum of 6 weeks. On their return to SFU they deliver a report of their findings. The ideal result is increased and tighter linkages with India, and a great experience for the students. There was only one hiccup.

The problem was that there was no formal internship setup for us. The Imaging Cinema workshop with Aysha Iqbal was only 10 days long. So what were we going to do with the rest of our time? Sara and I put our heads together and we decided to create some goals for ourselves. We both wanted to travel around India and not be stuck in one city for the whole trip. We wanted to find out what filmmaking was like in India, and what Canadian filmmakers would expect while working there. What could these two countries offer each other? What kind of exchanges and partnerships could we try setting up with SFU and Indian film schools? I would also be lying if I said I was a fan of Bollywood cinema before the internship. We both had very little exposure to Indian film, and wanted to know more about the magic of the song and dance that captured an audience of billions of people worldwide. Little did we know Bollywood isn’t the only kind of cinema being produced in India.

So how were we going to find out all of this? We tried Google and Wikipedia, believe me!  This is what we decided: We would go to India for 10 weeks. We found out that there was also a Kollywood (Tamil cinema based out of Chennai), and a Tollywood (Telugu cinema based out of Hyderabad) so we would spend 3 weeks in Chennai, 4 weeks in Mumbai, and 3 weeks in Hyderabad. Before going we would meet lots of Vancouver filmmakers and producers who had worked on projects in India and ask them about their experience. Once we got to Chennai, we would use the workshop as a starting point for gathering contacts and see how far we could get by talking to the speakers and participants. If networking failed, then we would try to visit studios and film schools in the different cities. And if all else failed, we would enjoy our time in India as tourists.

The following pages are a chronological description of Sara and my discoveries and the people we met along the way. The conclusion is a brief summation of what we learned about Indian cinema, but how we reached these conclusions is the most interesting part. Please keep in mind that this is a non-academic article and the theories and opinions stated are not necessarily absolute fact but interpretations of our observations and interviews with people working within the industry.

Vancouver, British Columbia: Treaties and Documentaries

 

Our biggest priority was to have an idea of what is currently being done in India, and find out where Canadian interests lie. However, first we needed a refresher course in coproduction. As this article is intended for public readership of all levels of knowledge and experience, I will go over the basics of coproduction treaties and why Canada needs them.

Jack Silberman, film and television producer and writer of “Call it Karma” had a good chat with us and discussed the basics of coproduction. In order for a film to be considered Canadian and sell its distribution rights, it must qualify by having enough CRTC points. These points are awarded based on the nationality of the filmmakers. Points are given for Directors, Cinematographer, Producers, Actors etc. and certain roles get more points than others. If the film has enough points, it qualifies as Canadian and can be pre-licensed allowing for the selling of distribution rights and thus the film gets funded.

A coproduction treaty allows for some of the point-giving roles to be filled by crew of the corresponding country. It also allows funding to come from both countries although there must be Canadian producers. There are also certain safety nets that are put in place to prevent labor imbalances and clauses that protect the interests of both negotiating parties.

Brigitte Monneau of Telefilm Canada filled us in on the current state of the Coproduction Treaty negotiations with India. Treaty negotiations began about ten years ago, but were halted and not resumed until September 2011. Treaties typically take 2-4 years to negotiate, and another 18 months to implement after they are signed. However, negotiations with India have been difficult in the past because the Indian industry is privately run and regulated. Now the Ministry of Information and Broadcasting has been brought in to act as the negotiating representative for the Indian film industry, but it remains to be signed.

However, just because there is no treaty signed between India and Canada, Canadian filmmakers haven’t been stopped producing film in India. There have been many films shot in India including Vic Sarin’s “Partition” which had some sequences filmed in India although mostly made in sets within Canada. Also, documentarians such as Nimisha Mukerji (65_Red Roses), and Meghna Haldar (Dirt) have gone into India and shot under the radar with local crews. Nimisha went to India to shoot for her upcoming film “Blood Relative” and brought only her cinematographer. She hired a local sound recorder and other crew and brought back the footage to Canada and finished the film within the CRTC points system.

So what was production like in a country like India for these documentarians? We learned through talking to Nimisha, Jack, and Jayanti Ram (CNN) that documentary is not a common form of filmmaking in India and it is difficult to work with Indian crews who have no experience in the medium. There are some Indian crews that specialize in working with foreign documentary and news crews. There are some crews who have been trained by companies like the BBC and continue to work with foreign productions. However documentary is a largely unpracticed form of storytelling in India. In fact, the NFDC produced a bunch of mini-documentaries that play as a pre-show before theatrical films, but the style of documentary is more like a public service advertisement. As a result, this is what many Indian audiences consider to be documentary. Also, a commonality between all documentary filmmakers’ experiences is that they found it absolutely necessary to have a designated ‘Fixer’ on set. A Fixer is an Indian crewmember whose sole job is to fix the problems that crop up for foreign crews including trouble with police, bribes, and translation. They are essential to a production manager because there are many differences in the way films get made in India.

Luckily, India has the common language of English despite its cultural and linguistic diversity. With the world trying to decide whether or not to invest in China or India, film coproductions will definitely be easier with India because they are already working in the same language as Anglophone Canadians.

Chennai, Tamil Nadu: Introduction to India, Its Filmmakers and Film Students

Not knowing what to expect, Sara and I suddenly found ourselves in the Chennai mid-summer heat. We stayed on the campus of IIT Madras thanks to the organization and hospitality of Dr. Aysha Iqbal, film appreciation professor at IIT Madras and Curator of the Imaging Cinema workshop. Unable to be of much help in comparison to Aysha’s many student organizers, Sara and I sat in the lectures and went through film school boot camp. The Imaging Cinema workshop has been a screenwriting workshop for the last three years, but this year it was expanded into a film-appreciation course and the students finished the 10-day workshop by writing, shooting, and editing 3-minute films in groups with a screening on the final day.

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Monkeys on campus at IIT Madras

The days consisted of lectures from industry professionals, panel discussions with filmmakers, and private film screenings at night. We had the opportunity to interview Sriram Raghavan (Agent Vinod) and Shridar Raghavan (Dum Maaro Dum) and Ravi K. Chandran (Cinematographer of Saawariya) on their work and their take on the Indian film industry. We also got to have a great discussion with Sudish Kamath (“Goodnight, Good Morning” and film critic for The Hindu) and Atul Tiwari (Screenwriter) on what separates Indian cinema from all the rest.

If you have watched a few classic Indian films, you may have realized that they are almost always have a 150-minute run-time. One of the contributing factors is that all classic Indian films are meant to be epics. Because of language barriers, the Indian audience that watches these films is narrowed and the films have to cater to a larger audience demographic. Each film attempts to cater to the full range of emotions and encompass all genres including slapstick comedy, to romance, to action, and suspense. This is done with the hope that every audience member can have a favorite moment in the film. Another large part of why this is a difficult form for filmmakers to break free of is that this is has become a type of requirement for the general mass-audience. The cinemagoers that bring the most views come from the towns and villages instead of the urban centers.  The reasons for this can be speculated on, but it is true that audiences in rural India will often see a movie in the theatre more than once. A North American parallel to this experience could be the way that many people will go see their favorite band more than once. So if a film wants to be marketable to these audiences it must be the full production value they are used to or it is considered a waste of their money and think they are getting ripped off.

Of course, this isn’t true of all Indian audiences. Urban audiences tend to be more exposed to international cinema because the cities have multi-screen theatres that can find space for the latest James Cameron film. These audiences also tend to be more educated than the rural audiences, and that is reflected in the ticketing price. Multiplex theatre ticket prices typically sell for between 200-350 Indian Rupees (4-7 dollars) per head, while single-screen cinemas only charge 55 rupees (1 dollar). Typically, the most successful films regain most of their money in rural areas, which means that they cater to audiences that expect the full 150-minute experience. While there is a new wave of Indian cinema emerging, these films have not yet been able to reach the same level of commercial success.

There are other distinguishing factors like song and dance sequences and intervals. Because music is so key in the marketing of a film, commercial films will always have songs. While watching these huge epics, songs are not only used as a way of telling the story but have also been used as an emotional break or transition between scenes. While music provides an emotional relief, sitting at the theatre for 150 minutes can also take its toll on your body. The films will often have an Interval of about 10 minutes for the audience to have some physical relief, stand up and stretch or use the bathroom.

One thing that was crystallized in our understanding of Indian cinema during the time at the workshop is that Indian cinema is so much more than Bollywood. In our interview with Ravi K. Chandran, he eloquently put that Indian cinema is like Indian cuisine; each region has its own flavor, its own dish, and its own language. While the form is similar and recognizable, the content varies. Currently, every region of India has its own cinema however small the industry. The ones we had time to research were limited to the cities we visited, namely: Mumbai, Pune, Hyderabad, and Chennai.

Bollywood is based in Mumbai and the films are Hindi-language. The name Bollywood is derived from the city’s old name, Bombay. While Bollywood is the dominant industry in Mumbai and India, Hindi and Marathi-language films are also being produced in the city that don’t prescribe to the classic Bollywood commercial cinema so loved by ‘the masses’. In the past, anything that wasn’t Bollywood was considered to be Parallel cinema. Now there is a New-Wave movement emerging from Mumbai and other parts of India where filmmakers are producing independent cinema that challenges the accepted formula of Bollywood. In fact, the movement is becoming so popular in India that New-Wave films are having some commercial success and mainstream studios and distributors are starting to take on directors such as Anurag Kashyap whose most recent films “Gangs of Wasseypur 1&2” are now being represented by Viacom.

The neighboring industry to Bollywood is based in Pune. It is considered a regional cinema because the language is Marathi, the main language of the state of Maharashtra that encompasses both Mumbai and Pune. Within Pune is the most famous film school in India, FTII (Film and Television Institute of India) located in an old studio complex. The Marathi-language industry is not so prolific as the Hindi-language industry because less people speak Marathi, and Bollywood overshadows it. I would compare the relationship to that between Hollywood and the Canadian film industry except the languages spoken are different. The Marathi film industry produces many films, but unfortunately only very few make it to the distribution stage. This is something I will elaborate on later.

Hyderabad has a booming industry that produces about 200-300 films a year. The commercial film industry in Hyderabad is called Tollywood because the language is Telugu. The industry is amazing because it produces so many films, but the audience that consumes the cinema is limited almost entirely to the state of Andhra Pradesh. While Telugu audiences may speak some Hindi, it is not common that Hindi audiences will also speak Telugu. This is why Tollywood is limited in its non-diaspora audiences, just like the Marathi industry. The sustainability of an industry like this is reliant completely on language. Partially because of illiteracy, it is extremely rare to find a film projected in India with subtitles. Another reason is India’s remake industry.  It is a common practice to take a film that is successful in one language, and remake it in another with a few story changes in order to make it immediately more relatable to the respective audience. A recent Telugu box-office hit was the film “Gabbar Singh.” The rights to remake the film in Hindi were bought as soon as it became clear that the film was making money.

Let us not forget the booming industry in the Southern city we were visiting, Chennai. The films are in the Tamil-language and the industry is called Kollywood. The name originated from the film-district Kodambakkam where there is a concentration of studios including the most well known, L.V. Prasad Studios. This industry also produces 200 films a year and is run on a similar language-based distribution model as Tollywood. During a discussion on the differences between Northern and Southern Indian cinema with the Raghavans and Thiagarajan Kumararaja (Aaranya Kaandam) at the workshop, it was noted that Tamil cinema tends to make more generally-appealing stories because the language group is smaller so they need to make it family-friendly to expand their viewership as much as possible. In contrast, Hindi-language cinema has a broader audience and as a result they have a bit more freedom to make films for niche markets.

While we visited Chennai, we had the chance to visit L. V. Prasad Film and Television Academy which is located inside the Studio complex and Directed by Mr. K. Hariharan. Because of the film school’s location, they are at an advantage over Vancouver-based film schools because they have immediate access to professional studio facilities. Uma Vangal gave us a tour, and since this was the first film school that Sara and I visited, we were blown away by the sets and studio space the students could use. On the other hand, the digital technology available to the students is not top-of-the-line. The editing room is a shared cluster of PC computers with dividers separating the filmmakers. The sound editing and recording rooms are also small and under-equipped in comparison to the facilities at other schools. On the plus side, the students get to do the final mix of their films in the same mixing rooms as the professional productions. There is also the benefit of being in close-proximity to the working industry and having the opportunity to interact with professionals every day. Despite the school’s technical setbacks, the class sizes are quite small and that enables the students to have much more hands-on practice. The school was founded in 2005 and offers diplomas in Direction, Cinematography, Editing, and Sound Design with a syllabus that is hands-on and project-heavy.

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Editing rooms at LVP Film Academy

We wrapped up our stay in Chennai with a quick trip over to Pondicherry to recover from the intense workshop. We were very excited to move onto the next stage of our journey, Mumbai, to meet again with the people we made connections with in Chennai and expand our research by gaining new perspectives on Indian cinema in a less-formal environment.

Mumbai, Maharashtra: Learning How to Make a Film Over Coffee

After a 24-hour train ride across the country, Sara and I landed in Mumbai. The moment we had a working mobile phone, we informed everyone of our arrival. Not even an hour went by and we had a message from Ravi K. Chandran inviting us out to Film City for a commercial shoot. We dropped our bags off at our hostel in Colaba, and took the one-hour train ride to Goregaon and the famed Film City.

Film City is an integrated film studio complex on the edge of Sanjay Gandhi National Park. It was built by the state government in order to support the film industry, and spans an area of many acres and is a great area to drive around. There are mansions, apartment buildings, and villages ready to shoot in. There are also many studio spaces for indoor shooting. We got through the security gates and showed up at one of these indoor studios just in time for lunch. It was a shoot for Fair and Lovely whitening face cream. We got to watch the production, and everything proceeded in the same way one might expect a commercial shoot to function in North America.

The only noticeable difference we saw was when we crossed over to a shoot in the studio next-door and found a feature-film shoot.  There were over one hundred crew on set, but about half of them were standing around drinking chai while the rest were shooting inside a train carriage.  Ravi K explained that when an Indian production rents equipment, each piece of equipment comes with an operator. This means that a camera unit could consist of a minimum of five people, and every light comes with a grip. This may seem inefficient, as anyone who has worked on a small film crew will know that a camera only needs one person to operate it, and perhaps a few people to handle all the lighting equipment. However, unemployment is a large issue in India and the total combined salary of the camera unit per day would still be less than what a camera operator would make in North America. Ravi K. Chandran admits that while it is not necessary, people get paid and the film gets made.

We went back to the commercial shoot where shooting was proceeding as planned. It started to rain and the sound was deafening. Normally this would put a production on hold but the shoot continued on as if nothing had changed. The studios are fairly old, and shooting with synchronous sound was rarely done until recently. As a result, most Bollywood productions are shot with a guide track and then dubbed over regardless in order to achieve a consistent sound throughout the film. Having made films in this way since sound was first used, India has a large pool of very talented voice-actors who specialize in dubbing. In fact, it wasn’t uncommon for actors to just mouth gibberish if they didn’t know the language or the script and have it dubbed over by another actor.

Another Indian film school is Whistling Woods International Institute (WWII), which was founded in 2005 and built within Film City. Currently there is a dispute over the land it was built on, but the original deal exchanged the land at a low price while giving Film City a 15% share of the school. Despite political issues, this school stands above all others in India. We received a special tour and were blown away by the technical facilities of the school. Not only did it have a large theatre for exhibition, the latest editing technology on Macintosh computers, and a beautiful sound recording studio and mixing stage, but the students also had the opportunity to learn how to use 3D cameras during their education. While the school does not allow the students to shoot their thesis films on 3D, they have a chance to do group exercises where they learn the workflow of the medium. The head of the screenwriting department is Anjum Rajabali, a noted screenwriter who has also worked with Praxis Centre for Screenwriters. Anjum and the head of WWII business department, Chaitanya Chinchlikar, sat down with Sara and I and not only gave us some insight on the film industry, but also gave us an invaluable list of contacts and references to help us in our research in Mumbai, Pune, and Hyderabad.

Another pair of individuals who were more than helpful when it came to expanding our contact list was Shridar and Sriram Raghavan with whom we had interview in Chennai. They also invited over Rohan Sippy who was speaking at the workshop in Chennai but we never had a chance to meet. After a meeting in their office, we had more contacts than we could meet. We refocused our research and booked meetings focusing on the cinematography and production side of filmmaking in India.

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Hanging out on a shoot

The first of these meetings was with Deepti Gupta and Manoj Lobo, both cinematographers in different sectors of the industry. Deepti specializes in independent films and documentaries, and Manoj started in the commercial sector of film and is now a cinematographer on many Bollywood films. From them we learned something very important. Despite our experience on set with Ravi K. Chandran, traditionally Indian film production runs on a more ‘feudal system’ on set. By feudal, it is meant that the entire crew is at the whim of the director and technical skills are valued more than managerial. A role such as Assistant Director would previously have no recognition on set because the skill set required no technical training and it was considered the job could be done by anyone. As a result, a person who works what is considered to be one of the most important jobs on set in North America would get paid a fraction of what a camera operator would make. This is how production worked in India for quite some time. The process is chaotic, and the director has absolute power over the producers. This style of working is still common in India, particularly in the South where corporate production companies have no yet gained a foothold. However, the Western set hierarchy is also common practice, and I think it would be a mistake to say that it is the wrong way of doing things. Perhaps the feudal system is not as efficient as the Western model, but in the end the film gets made. This is something that could require adjustment for a foreign filmmaker coming to India for a coproduction. Nevertheless, it is important to be flexible and understand that the film will still be completed. Resistance is futile, and the best way to emerge from a project would be to go with the flow and be prepared for a bit of chaos instead of fighting every step of the way.

Another very important thing for Sara and I to find out was the role of women within the Indian film industry. Up until this point we had only asked men about gender equality in the industry, and the men we had asked were screenwriters and directors with the exception of Ravi K. Chandran whose most recent camera assistants have both been women who have gone on to start their own careers in cinematography. The overall impression we had received up until this point was that the ratios were fairly equal to those seen in North America. There would be a split of roughly 30/70 women to men on set. However, Deepti pointed out that while there are women on set, they are almost always in assistant positions. It is rare to find a woman in India as the head of a department on set. There are only a handful of women Cinematographers in India, and only two of the last hundred films produced had female Directors. However, Sara and I did manage to meet some great female producers in our time in Mumbai.

The first producer was Purva Naresh, Executive Producer of Fiction Films at Reliance Entertainment. We wanted to know what sources of funding were available for filmmakers in India, and what were the current trends producers were looking for in the industry.  Purva informed us that Reliance is one of the few production companies that is currently producing regional cinema. At that time, Reliance was producing predominantly Action films, although they had just completed production of their first animated film, “Krishna Aur Kans”. Typically, the trend in production shifts between Action genre films and Romantic Comedies every few years. Currently, Reliance has had its eyes on the South and are looking to integrate themselves more by either bringing southern filmmakers to Mumbai, or more ideally to produce films within the South. Sara and I also learned that the main contributing factor of a film being made or not depends almost solely on having a star signed up for the project. Typically, a filmmaker will approach a star with a script before a production company because if a star likes the film enough they will either produce it themselves or vouch for the film on behalf of the filmmaker. This is because the biggest selling point in commercial Indian cinema is the star quality. If there is a big star involved in the project, a big part of the marketing and sales has already been taken care of. However, not all successful Indian films manage to get stars but find other ways to be produced.

Historically, private studios have dominated Indian production. A well-known family-owned studio would be Banerji Productions. There has also been a bit of government funding available to first-time filmmakers provided by the NFDC and local state organizations. Recently, some of these government-funding programs have been reduced. There are also some programs such as the Children’s Film Society of India that gives funding to filmmakers who decide to make a film on children’s themes. Another viable option for production in the past has been private businessmen. It isn’t uncommon for a Non-Resident Indian to return and make a film. The issue with this method is that the films are often shelved after post-production and seldom make it to distribution.  Outside these three, there have been two more recent forms of production that have been finding their way into the industry. The first is American-style corporate production houses such as Fox-Star Studios and Reliance Entertainment. The methods of production practiced in these studios is much more regulated that the “feudal system” of filmmaking. This has resulted in difficulty for these companies to find their niche in India at first. However, they are gaining a foothold in Northern India and Hindi cinema despite their continued difficulty breaking into the Southern industries. Another method is crowd funding. Although India presently has no crowd-funding platform such as Kickstarter or Indie Go-Go, Vasan Bala’s debut feature produced by Guneet Monga and AKFPL Productions was entirely funded through Facebook. The film was a great success and made it into TIFF 2012, cementing crowd funding as a viable production-option for those filmmakers who are up for the challenge. Coproduction has never come up in conversation with Indian filmmakers and producers as a way of funding a film. A way of increasing the chances of the coproduction treaty being signed between Canada and India is to increase the awareness of coproductions as a viable option for Indian filmmakers.

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Caught on camera at Anurag’s office

After a bit of headhunting, Sara and I finally managed to track down Anurag Kashyap (Dev. D, Gangs of Wasseypur) whom we had met for a total of 10 seconds in Chennai due to the fan mob that surrounded him. He had given us his card and said to come by and visit the AKFPL office when we were in Mumbai. After that initial interaction we had to wheedle his personal mobile number from friends in order to confirm any sort of meeting. This sort of difficulty can be expected when trying to get an interview with one of the most influential contemporary directors in India. Anurag Kashyap has now directed over 10 films of his own, and has been writing and producing many others in his career. When we met him at his bungalow office-space, he had recently formed Phantom Productions in addition to AKFPL and both companies together were currently producing a total of 18 films in the year of 2012, inclusive of shorts and features. Anurag’s production space is more of a community center for independent filmmakers than a studio. Located in a two-story bungalow, the main hall and staircase is dedicated to a communal space for writing, discussion, and reading. There are also two editing suites, a VFX room, a multipurpose space for meetings and auditions, and a working kitchen for all to use. This space is where a great portion of India’s New-Wave cinema movement is emerging. Anurag does not finance the films himself, but acts as a creative producer guiding the filmmakers through the process. His partner Guneet Monga acts as Producer, keeps the filmmakers in-line, helps them access finances, and manages the logistics of the projects. Without this communal space for the filmmakers, many of the new-wave films found this year at Cannes and TIFF would never have happened. This is a new form of filmmaking that challenges the Bollywood norm, and yet is still managing to have some success in the industry. When asked if the production model was working, Anurag stated that it was too early to tell, but that he would continue to make films until forced to stop.

Our final meeting with a producer was with Swati Shetty. She had previously worked as Creative Producer for Disney International Productions and then President of Banerji. Only recently she has left both the corporate and the private studio modes of production and started the independent production company called Samosa Stories. When we had met, she was in the process of reading scripts. When asked what she was looking for, the biggest factor was the story. She was reading three screenplays a day and had not yet found anything worth pursuing. From our own experience with Indian film schools and the industry in general, it seems that screenwriting tends to be overlooked as the foundation of a film. Instead, the foundation of commercial films in India are the stars. When asked if she would be interested in doing coproductions with Canada, her answer was simple: If the story is right for a coproduction, then yes. India currently had coproduction treaties with Brazil, Germany, Italy, France, New Zealand, and the United Kingdom.

Right before we left Mumbai, we decided to take a serious look into the animation industry. This was something that none of the filmmaker’s we had talked had had much experience with. Luckily within Film City and associated with WWII is Maya Productions, a company that was founded by filmmaker Ketan Mehta in 1996. Ketan has already done a coproduction with France, and he explained that all a film needs to be a coproduction in India is government clearance of the script, and the censorship boards are not as conservative as they used to be so most applications go through without any changes. An offshoot of this company is Maya Digital Studios, where a good amount of animation work is being done. Founded only a few years ago, Maya Digital Studios has been building its own animation 3D Stereoscopic platform and is currently doing a variety of work in film, commercials, and games. Having just completed the 2D to 3D conversion of “Piranha Double D” this year, Maya Digital Studios is now focusing its energy on completing a 3D version of the classic Indian film, “Sholay.” The film is an absolute must-see for Indian audiences and held a box office record for 19 years. Re-releasing the film in 3D is sure to result in another good box office return.

Sara and I got to watch the Maya Digital Studio show reel and although it is the first studio to produce its own feature length animated film, “The Ramayana”, the detail of the animation we were seeing was not quite to the standards of American and Canadian animated productions. While Maya has the technology to do this kind of animation, Indian production companies are still adjusting to the workflow of an animated film. While it would be quite standard to produce a feature length film in 3 months, the animation industry cannot be held to the same kind of deadlines. However, this seems to be an opportunity where a coproduction treaty with Canada can be useful. Increased coproductions with Canada can help streamline the process of producing an animated film, and increase the resources necessary to allow the animators the time required to produce high-standard work. Ketan Mehta is already preparing for what he hopes is the imminent signing of the coproduction treaty. Already doing lots of work with Canada and the United States with 2D – 3D conversion, Ketan is hoping that soon that won’t be the only kind of project they are doing with North America.

Pune, Maharashtra: Regional Cinema and Filmmaking in Bollywood’s Shadow

 Through a reference we had met at the workshop in Chennai, Sara and I got in touch with Kranti Kanade, a filmmaker based in Pune. We also got a reference from Manoj Lobo to contact Girish Kulkarni (Pune-52) and we were very excited to have a chance to meet him as well as visit the famed Film and Television Institute of India (FTII), where so many of the filmmakers we had met had gone to school.

We first visited Kranti and had the opportunity to watch his entire body of work including some of his unreleased feature “Gandhi of the Month” starring Harvey Keitel. After Kranti’s thesis film won him a National Award, he wanted to make a feature film.  The film was going to be produced by the NFDC, but right before the project was Green-Lit, the first-time filmmaker’s funding program was shut down. Still hungry to make a film but without the money to do it, he went to the last resort he knew of. He submitted two feature film ideas to the Children’s Film Society that were both approved for funding. Kranti then made the first film, “Mahek” and this film was a success. After this, Kranti went to Los Angeles and did a course in Producing. He came back to India but the idea of his second children’s film had evolved. This film became “Gandhi of the Month” and was made with American money although shot exclusively in India. Through Kranti’s experience, we learned that there are other ways of getting your film made if it isn’t Bollywood material or a Children’s film. We also realized that Canada should not be expecting to make coproductions with Bollywood or the other successful industries in India but rather involve itself with regional cinema where money is harder to come by.

Another filmmaking pair based in Pune has also had some success outside of Bollywood. Umesh and Girish Kulkarni (Pune-52, Valu) have written and directed together since Umesh was attending FTII and Girish was acting in his films.  Together they have successfully distributed three films in three different ways. The first film was the hardest to get off the ground. In order to raise money for it they had friends and family invest their money with the promise of paying them back. After they made the film, they sold it to a Bollywood distributor and got enough money to pay back their debts. Because of the box-office success of the first film, a Bollywood production studio agreed to work with them on their next film. A private businessman who had decided he was interested in making a Marathi film funded their most recent production. However, Girish has found it quite difficult in all cases to properly distribute and market the films once they are made. While both their first films had distribution and marketing taken care of my the companies that bought the rights, they found that these companies neglected to market their films properly because they were assumed to automatically not do well in the box office. This is because they were Marathi-language films, and the companies would instead focus most of their attention on the Bollywood-Hindi productions. While Umesh and Girish were quite careful with that process, they found they had to be completely involved in the distribution of the film and do most of the work themselves or else it would be neglected. Meanwhile, the issue with private businessmen is that once the film is made the producers usually lose interest in the project and make no effort to distribute it. As a result, Girish says that out of 100 films that get made in the Marathi industry, perhaps only 5 to 10 films will ever be exhibited. This can be quite exhausting for the filmmakers, and as a result Girish and Umesh have had to take a full two years for each of their films to be produced and distributed. Then they find they need a break because it is such an exhausting process. This then results in fewer films being made compared to directors who only have to worry about making the film and then can move onto the next project before it even hits the screen. On the other hand, at least these films are being made and Umesh and Girish have the drive to make them seen.

The next stop for us was to visit Indranil Battacharya at FTII, Pune. Indranil is a film appreciation professor at FTII and he was running a summer film appreciation workshop and everyone was very busy. He started us off by letting us sit in on one of the lectures, and then had a student give us a tour of the campus. That day there was a class on Animation. The lecturer was trying to teach the students about the different forms of animation by showing short films and opening up discussion on why different forms of animation would be effective for different types of stories. We were happy to see that Canada was being well represented onscreen. However, once the discussion opened up, the dominant question was, “How did they do it?” Frame-by-frame animation and the way that film works were explained, but again the question came up after each film. It seemed like the students wanted to learn how to animate instead of learn when and why to use it.

We wondered why this might be, and a few weeks later we realized that these students were our age, yet animation has only become common in India within the last 10-15 years. These students probably did not grow up watching Disney on VHS and seeing the Disney promotional shorts where they show frame-by-frame drawings of “The Lion King”. As far as I know, these films were not available with Hindi subtitles in those days, nor can it be expected that an Indian child would be able to understand the English versions of the film when English is their second-language. However, when I think of animation, it seems I have known how it works my entire life because I had watched the Disney animation videos repeatedly from before the time my brain was fully developed. However, animation has only been used recently in India for telling children’s stories and is not considered by many audiences as a form of adult entertainment.

On FTII’s film program, the tour that we had been given demonstrated that the school has by far the most studio space and in excellent condition compared to WWII and LVPFTI. This is because it was founded in 1960 in the old Prabhat Film Studios, which were left standing as Municipal Heritage Sites. We did not get an in-depth tour of the digital facilities but did have a chance to see the large mixing theatre that students could do their final mixes in. However, it seemed that only space was what FTII had in its favor when competing with WWII. Unfortunately, some of the people with whom we had discussed the school found that the instruction was not with the other schools mainly because in the last few years it has not had the money pay professional filmmaker’s to come teach. It is a government-funded program that takes on batches of 12 students a year. While in the past, it had a great standing as the elite National film school, these days it has been struggling to survive and even tried increasing the number of students per batch.

Hyderabad, Andhra Pradesh: Southern Cinema and Fandom

The last area we knew we had to research was Tollywood. At this point, we had heard so much about Southern film and filmmakers as being both a source of new stories and having a successful commercial film industry. In order to learn more about what makes Southern cinema different from the North, we managed to meet with Mohan Krishna (Grahanam), Jayanth Paranjee (Theenmaar), and Daggubatti Suresh Babu (Suresh Productions). All three confirmed the overall impression we had garnered so far, that the main difference is the world in which the story takes place. Mohan Krishna started his film career by attending York University in Canada, and then says it took him ten years of pushing to break into the Tollywood film industry. He says that a big difference is that a lot of Telugu-language films take place in an alternate reality, or at least an enhanced version of the real world and tend to have heroes that are more often middle-lower class. This is in contrast to mainstream Bollywood cinema where glamorization enhances the reality and the stories typically deal with upper-class families. Suresh Babu also speculated another reason for the choice of middle-lower class stories as a result of the inherently lower production budgets. This is all said with the caveat that recently there have been some very successful Northern films that show heroes who come from middle-lower class backgrounds who elevate themselves to an upper-class status through heroic acts or crime.

Jayanth Paranjee has been directing films in Tollywood for many years. When we asked him about the new strain of corporate studios in India he answered that while they have been managing to gain a foothold in the North, they are struggling to integrate themselves with the Southern industries. The reason why is that for as long as filmmaking has been a business in the South, it has mostly functioned on the “feudal” system (previously discussed with Deepti Gupta and Manoj Lobo) where the director has ultimate control and works with a producer who will accommodate their needs. Having attempted to work with a corporate studio before, Jayanth says that there is just too much red-tape making production difficult. The sudden implementation of Western studio practices has not worked for Southern filmmakers, and the industry is so successful on its own there is no need for them to change the way they work.

While in Hyderabad, we noticed a bunch of posters and billboards featuring an animated picture of a housefly. The tagline was “The Ultimate Revenge Story”. This was something Sara and I were wondering about, as we weren’t sure if it was promotion for a film since there were no stars on the posters. While chatting with Suresh Babu, we asked about the posters because he had one in his office. It turns out that the film is produced by his company, and is a story about a man who is reincarnated as a fly and finds a way to take revenge on the man who killed him and stole his lover. What we found surprising was that we had been told that audiences didn’t take animation seriously in India because it was seen as a way of telling children’s stories. However, Suresh Productions was taking a chance and telling an adult-themed story where instead of a star playing the hero, there is an animated housefly. It could be that with the release of this film, the general perception of animation in India will start to change. So far the film has done well, reaching a box office total of 17 Crores in its first day worldwide and reached its 50 days in theatres August 24th.

Jayanth wanted to make sure we had the full Indian film experience before we left the country. Up until this point, Sara and I had seen films like “Shanghai” and “Cocktail” in multiplexes. However, we learned that this is not the right environment to get a full grasp of how Indian audiences watch movies and why the films are so different from Western cinema. We managed to book tickets to see the film “Gabbar Singh” which had been playing in theatres for about two months by this point. Unfortunately there were to be no big releases during our last few days in India, but apparently it is something to behold. Stars are idolized in India far beyond the Hollywood star-system, so when a big star has a film release audiences will line up the night before to catch the 11:00 am showing. There are sometimes large cardboard cutouts of the film stars that are bathed with gallons of milk as a blessing, and people perform pujas and bless the movie posters on their way into the cinema. When Sara and I went into the massive single-screen theatre, the theatre was about 1/3 full but for weeks after a film is released it will be sold out at every showing. During the projection of the film, we finally realized the other reasons why the film will release the big item songs before the premiere. Some members of the audience got out of their seats and went in front of the screen and were singing the song and doing the signature dance moves with the film. It was like a live concert. When the hero was first shown the audience cheered and clapped and whistled at the sight of the star. I had wondered why commercial films put so much emphasis on these big moments by using slow-motion walks and freeze-frames. The films need to leave that space the same way a comedian needs to leave space between jokes for the laughter to die down. The long spaces are filled with cheering and whistling. I have to say that the entire way through “Gabbar Singh” I did not feel the length the way I would have had I been watching at home. The biggest influence on Indian cinema is the audience. The audience wants to participate with the film instead of sit back and get lost the way Western audiences do. This is most likely the reason why Western audiences have trouble relating to Indian commercial cinema. While in Western countries we have a similar experience with cult-films like “Rocky Horror Picture Show” the audience participation arises out the film culture that has developed over years. The same can be said for new-releases of films like “The Dark Knight” where despite the film being a new-release, the story of Batman has built enough of a cultural following that the audience feels free to applaud and cheer during the film. So while Western audiences place their fan-energy on stories and fictional characters that have been developed culturally over time, Indian audiences have the same energy but directed toward the stars who have developed their fan-based culture over time.

Chennai: The Music Industry

Stars and music have always been a very important part of Indian cinema. Before a film is released, the marketing of a film revolves predominantly around these elements rather than promoting the story. At the end of Sara and I’s journey, we returned to Chennai for our last week. After being around the country we had made some friends and as a result managed to connect with Devi Sri Prasad, a prolific film music composer and musician at his studio in Chennai. While Devi is only thirty-three years old, he has won many awards for Best Music Director and has worked with films in Telugu, Tamil, and Hindi. We managed to gain some insight on the music-production side of filmmaking. The popular music industry in India is dominated by film music instead of musical groups and bands. As a result, there is a lot of work for musicians in India who want to be involved in film music because are so many films. Typically the songs are written when the script is in its final stages and fully recorded so that the song sequences can be filmed with the stars singing the parts and dancing to the right beat. Sometimes the stars sing the songs themselves, but more often than not a different singer will record every song in the film even if the same character on screen sings them.

Sometimes new song sequences will be added to the film after the principal shooting has been completed. This happens when the filmmakers find that there are holes in the story or that there needs to be a song in between scenes to allow for an emotional shift. However, recently there have been more and more films that don’t have many synchronous song and dance sequences and the music is added once the film is in post-production as is usually done in Western cinema. Despite this, music remains an incredibly important part of films for Indian filmmakers whether they are making new wave, Regional, Bollywood, Tollywood, Kollywood or any other kind of Indian cinema. If the importance of music for Indian cinema was not fully clear for us, we learned that film composers were used to promote the film as much as the stars. While we were in Chennai, we went out one night with Devi Sri Prasad and Tollywood star Charmme Kaur. While Charmme was not recognized so much in Chennai, she would not have been able to go out in public in Hyderabad without being mobbed by fans. We got an idea of how it can be for composers as well when throughout the night Devi was constantly drawing stares and was regularly asked for photos and autographs.

Conclusion: Collaboration with India

With all this fandom, a gross production of 1000 films released a year, and the international status of Indian cinema; one might think that Canada has nothing to offer. The truth is that coproduction is only ever an option when there are two industries that need each-others help to tell a certain story. I don’t see the future of Indian coproduction being more Bollywood films shot in the Rocky Mountains. I also don’t see it as a way for Canadian productions to outsource labor costs to India (Coproduction treaties include clauses to prevent labor imbalances). Bollywood has been and will continue to be very successful on its own within India, but I see coproduction functioning for Bollywood as a way to expand its audience and tell transnational stories. We have all seen the success of Danny Boyle’s “Slumdog Millionaire” but it is a U.K. production. The screenplay is written with a Western sensibility and as a result it resonates more with Western audiences. Perhaps coproductions will allow for a blending of storytelling sensibilities and create new international audiences.

Additionally, the areas ripest for coproduction are the ones that need the most help. Regional cinema like the Marathi industry based in Pune need producers and distributors who aren’t invested in Bollywood to take care of their films. These regional industries also have potential to output transnational stories, explore and create new ways of telling stories through film, and less pressure to conform to the classic formula. Animation is also an area in which Canada excels that India is only beginning to use as a serious form of storytelling. While the film “Eega” may be starting to overcome the assumption that animation is only for children’s stories, Canada can offer increased exposure to the Indian industry by increasing the production of Indian stories told through the animation-medium, as well as a transfer of best-practice to help increase the visual quality of Indian animated films.

Coproduction between Canada and India has the ability to internationally increase awareness of Canadian cinema and filmmakers by expanding its Indian audience. Through coproduction, I see new kinds of stories being told that reflect our current globalized world. Through international collaboration, I see new grammars of filmmaking being forged, and new audiences being made.

Notes:

A very special thanks to all the wonderful people who helped Sara and I on our journey to India. While not all the people we met were mentioned in the main article, everyone was essential to our journey and we really appreciate the time and effort given to us: Meghna Haldar, Jayanti Ram, Jack Silberman, Brigitte Monneau, Nimisha Mukerji, Patricia Gruben, Richard Brownsey, Aysha Iqbal and the student organizers of Imaging Cinema, Atul Tiwari, Sudish Kamath, Mugil Chandran, Shridar Raghavan, Sriram Raghavan, Ravi K. Chandran, Chatura Chattaram, Shilpa Mukerji, Uma Vangal, Mr. K. Hariharan, Gauri Chicliggur, Chaitanya Chinchlikar, Anjum Rajabali, Rashmi Condra, Kranti Kanade, Shakuntala Kanade, Amit Kumar, Izaak Haarhoff, Indranil Bhattacharya, Rohan Sippy, Roopa De Choudary, Garima Mehta, Manisha, Michael Sinden, Deepti Gupta, Manoj Lobo, Nikhil Hegde, Umesh Kulkarni, Girish Kulkarni, Vipin Sharma, Purva Naresh, Anurag Kashyap, Shlok Sharma, Vasan Bala, Guneet Monga, Madhu Mantena, Myleeta Aga, Ketan Mehta, Swati Shetty, Aditi Vasudev, Mohan Krishna, Jayanth Paranjee and family, Salib Gunaam, Prakash Kovalamudi, Daggubatti Suresh Babu, Pritham K Chakravarthy, Our Chennai Hosts, Trisha Krishnan, Devi Sri Prasad, Charmme Kaur.

The India Initiative and Solutions for the BC Film Industry

 Foreword

Through Simon Fraser University’s India Initiative program, supported by the federal government’s Western Economic Diversification office, my colleague Sara Blake and I spent ten weeks in India exploring the potential for Indian-Canadian partnerships in the film industry in 2012.  We were asked to research the current state of filmmaking in India and report on opportunities for collaboration with Canadian producers.  We found many filmmakers, educators and production executives were very interested in telling us about the current state of the Indian film industry and wanted to know more about coproduction, but the truth is that there is so much interest in India that until now, there has been almost no awareness of BC film and the coproduction possibilities that are ripe for production.

Happy to be in Chennai and researching our favorite thing, film.

Happy to be in Chennai and researching our favorite thing, film.

India already has co-production treaties with the United Kingdom, France, Germany, Italy, Spain, New Zealand, and Brazil. Considering our significant South Asian population and the success of Indo-Canadian filmmakers such as Deepa Mehta, Richie Mehta, and Vic Sarin, one would expect that Canada should be next on the list. Canada and India have been negotiating a treaty on and off for about ten years and people are hopeful that an agreement will soon be reached. The issue that seems to stand in the way is that coproduction has many incentives for Indian producers, but very little incentive for foreign industries apart from the value of the Indian Rupee. The low number of films that have been made under the negotiated coproduction treaties illustrates this, and this is an issue that needs to be looked into further.

However, even without a treaty we could see that increasing the connections between BC and India with information transfer and expertise through labor and talent exchanges in animation and production technologies can benefit both parties. In order to accomplish this we need to increase our understanding of the industry in India, become aware of productions and events, and build up a professional network.

 The Research

From May to August we conducted one-on-one interviews with a number of industry professionals, including major producer/directors such as Anurag Kashyap (Dev D.) and Ketan Mehta (The Rising: Ballad of Mangal Pandey). We prepared for the trip in Vancouver by interviewing filmmakers and producers who had already worked on various India-related projects. Through interviews with Richard Brownsey (BC Film + Media), Jack Silberman (filmmaker) and Brigitte Monneau (Telefilm), we learned about the status of Canadian co-productions and ongoing negotiations with India’s Ministry of Information and Broadcasting.

However, most of the Vancouver  producers we met had been working on documentaries, so the information we gleaned was about the least practiced form of Indian cinema.  Nimisha Mukerji, Meghna Haldar, and Jayanti Ram explained how difficult it can be to work with Indian crews who are untrained in documentary-style shooting as well as some of the issues resulting from cultural differences and dealing with local authorities.

Chennai

Our first stop was Chennai for the IIT Madras Imaging Cinema workshop, which attracted participants from around the country. We interned with Dr. Aysha Iqbal, director of the ten-day workshop, and made vital connections with experts from both the Tamil and Hindi film industries. Among the many important and high-profile guests, the meetings that were most integral to our research were with screenwriting/directing brothers Shridhar and Sriram Raghavan and cinematographer Ravi K. Chandran. They gave us a good idea of how storytelling has evolved in Indian cinema, and an overall impression of attitudes toward filmmaking as a profession and a career. Talking with other filmmakers such as Sudhish Kamath and watching panel discussions at the workshop, we gained a deeper understanding of the different styles of India cinema, encompassing regional and independent film as well as Bollywood. During the workshop we also made connections with many young filmmakers and film students and many film enthusiasts who opened our eyes to the interests and the demands of Indian audiences.

Mumbai

Poster

NFDC celebrates the Mumbai filmmakers with films at TIFF 2012

On our first day in Mumbai, Ravi K. Chandran invited us to Film City, the major studio complex at the north end of the city, to watch a commercial shoot where he was working as director of photography. As in Canada, crews can take on many shapes and sizes depending on the budget and scope of the production. The reasons for the variety in production standards in India as well as variation in hierarchy systems were explained to us by cinematographers Manoj Lobo and Deepti Gupta. They also informed us of the status of women in industry production roles. We are now familiar with some of the difficulties that a Canadian filmmaker could face when trying to work with Indian crews. However, we were made aware of the importance for sensitivity and compromise foreign filmmakers need to practice if they want to be successful.

We reconnected with the Raghavan brothers and Rohan Sippy (Chandni Chowk to China), producer-director of several feature films in international release; they generously compiled a list of over twenty industry professionals that we could contact and interview with their referral. We interviewed a corporate producer, Purva Naresh from Reliance Entertainment; a private studio producer, Swati Shetty, who had recently left Banerji Studios to start her own company; and one of the most respected and successful of Indian New wave filmmakers, writer/ producer/director Anurag Kayshyap (Dev D). These interviews revealed the great diversity in the industry as well as the many contrasting opinions of Indian cinema and what it takes to produce a film in India.  More details on specific companies and filmmakers are provided in our longer report.

Regional Cinema

Pune, within commuting distance of the capitol of Hindi cinema in Mumbai, is  the base of the far less visible Marathi-language cinema, which struggles for recognition outside its own linguistic circle. An enlightening interview with Girish Kulkarni (Pune 52) illustrated the many strategies he and his co-producer, Umesh Kulkarni, have employed to produce their films for a small market, the difficulties that face independent filmmakers, and the bias marketers and distributors have toward regional cinema. Another interview with Kranti Kanade informed us of how film associations such as the National Film Development Corporation and the Children’s Film Society have enabled emerging filmmakers to create; he also explained how he has managed to outsource production to the United States for his unreleased film Gandhi of the Month.

In Hyderabad we investigated the Telugu-language film industry. We had excellent meetings with Jayanth Paranjee and Dagubatti Suresh Babu to elaborate on the industry differences between the Northern and Southern cinema, as well as some exposure to Telugu films and the single screen cinema experience. We also met with Mohan Krishna, a Hyderabadi director who did his schooling at York University and then managed to break into the Telugu film industry after years of hard work and dedication.

Animation

Animation is a growing sector, particularly in Hyderabad and Mumbai.  We met with major Bollywood producer/director Ketan Mehta (The Rising: Ballad of Mangal Pandey), who has diversified from the feature film industry with the first feature-length animated version of the Indian epic Ramayana. Until very recently, animation has not been taken seriously by producers for anything other than children’s stories. However, a film starring a reincarnated fly that seeks revenge on the man who murdered him and took his wife seems to be changing this. The film Eega (Suresh Productions) was a huge success in the Telugu language and has recently been released in Hindi. The adult themes explored in this film, combined with its commercial success, have opened the doors to animation as a viable medium for storytelling.  The animation industry is one that bears further study, particularly because of Canada’s expertise and coproduction possibilities in the area.

A New Initiative

Back in Canada, I attended the Toronto International Film Festival and reconnected with several filmmakers we had met in India, including Anurag Kashyap, Anand Gandhi, and Hansal Mehta.   Another Indo-Canadian connection made at TIFF was Vipin Sharma, an actor who worked in Toronto for many years and recently transplanted his career to Mumbai.  The TIFF experience was a great way to strengthen our earlier connections and build new ones. The timing for our project is excellent, as awareness of independent Indian cinema is increasing in Canada with the upcoming Times of India Film Awards in April, and the recent focus on Indian cinema at film festivals around the world.  It is an appropriate time for Indian cinema to expand its audience, as this year marks the Centennial of the Indian film industry.

TOIFA Launch in Vancouver

TOIFA press conference in Vancouver is attended by big Bollywood names

The Future

This summary only scratches the surface of what we learned about the Indian film industry. The future of Indian coproduction is not more Bollywood films shot in the Rocky Mountains or a way for Canadian productions to outsource labor to India. Co-production can function commercially as a way of expanding Indian cinema’s audience and tell transnational stories; these will include new stories that reflect the globalized world we live in today and increase Indian awareness of Canada and Canadian cinema. Animation is an area in which Canada excels both technically and creatively; Indian filmmakers may benefit from being exposed to Western animation production methods. Increasing the production of Indian stories told through the animation medium, as well as a transfer of best practices, will help increase the visual quality of Indian animated films.

Save BC Film

BC filmmakers petition for more funding

Now I am back in Mumbai to continue working on this initiative to increase collaboration between Indian and Canadian film. At this time, the British Columbia film industry is in a state of crisis due to an overdependence on Hollywood to outsource its production to Vancouver for tax credits. Vancouver is the third largest film production center in North America, and has an incredible workforce, film-friendly infrastructure, and some of the most beautiful scenery in the world but because of tax-credit bidding war between Vancouver, Toronto, and Quebec, the industry is in crisis because despite the millions of dollars being provided by the government, employment in BC film continues to drop. There is much debate as to what is the true solution to the problem, but I think the first step for BC film is to diversify itself as a site for not only American productions but to encourage Indian productions. Vancouver is an international city and full of new emigrants with international stories to tell. A coproduction treaty with India will make it easier to tell these stories and give the BC film industry the films and the international audience it needs to become self-sufficent.

Co-productions will create environments for a blending of storytelling sensibilities and new international audiences. In smaller-market areas like independent, regional, and new wave cinema, co-production will be an effective way to increase budgets, production quality, and distribution, and enhance the commercial viability of these sectors. This new initiative also has the ability to increase international awareness of Canadian cinema and filmmakers by expanding its Indian audience. Through international collaboration, we see new grammars of filmmaking being forged, and new audiences being made.

If you would like to contribute to the immediate future of BC Film, you can sign the SAVE BC FILM petition.

To come: Future blog entries on the different facets of the Indian Film industry from our research FYI.

You Can’t Polish a Turd

This is probably the best advice I have ever been given. The man who said it was Murray Bulger, my high school Information Technology teacher and the person who introduced me to making videos when I was 16 years old.

The context was this: If you’re making a film and the story is bad, the camera work is bad, or the sound is bad… the film is going to be bad. The saying “Fix it in post” is only used with sarcasm with the people I work with these days. Sometimes a poor shot can be excused or even made to look intentional, but an audience that has been trained to watch films with the suspension of disbelief will almost always pick up on the one or two bad things about a film because it automatically draws attention to the fact that they are spectators and not really involved in the story.

The term, suspension of disbelief, refers to a spectator getting ‘caught up’ in the story and forgetting they are watching a movie. When an element of the film draws attention to its own artifact, the suspension of disbelief is broken. This is often not what narrative filmmakers want. In order to make a seamless film, it is therefore necessary to make sure every facet is executed to its best potential.

When I started making films, I was very controlling of the production because I didn’t trust my crew to meet my standards. This resulted in my domination of the production and doing every job possible by myself. As I went into film school, this persisted for the first couple of years partially because of the nature of my projects. I was making experimental and documentary films with no more than two subjects, and that made it easier for me to handle camera, sound, direction, etc. As a result, the production quality was not as good as it could have been because I simply couldn’t focus on camera and properly conduct an interview at the same time. I legitimized this with the nature of my projects, but I wonder now if I chose to make those films because of my distrust of other people’s competency.

In my third year of film school, I finally gave up some control. I got Remy Siu, a composer, to do some work with soundscapes for my documentary “The King of Cassiar” so I could focus on the editing and my other schoolwork. In my experimental documentary “Index: Alexander St.” I had the amazing Jon Thomas take charge of the camera and the film would not have been the same without him.

This is when I got another amazing piece of advice from my production teacher, Bridget Hill. “Figure out what you’re not good at and stop doing it!” The message being that if you haven’t made any progress after three years of film school, it might be best to start letting other people do the work for you for the sake of the project. This hit home for me and I realized that the only reason I was doing it all myself was my own unattainable goal to be good at everything. I don’t believe all humans were created equal because I know very well that there are some cinematographers out there who have an eye for lighting that I lack, and to be honest, camera operating has always scared me because I am not great with my hands (another thing I struggled to admit).

And so it began, my slow relinquish of control as I embraced the merits of teamwork. At this point most of the people in my class had found their niche and specialty. I could take advantage of different people’s skills for my film and trust that they could deliver at least the same quality if not better than what I could do. I think it’s too bad that I didn’t realize this earlier in film school because I believe that some of my projects could have been better had I only built my relationships with my classmates sooner. However, by the time I had to shoot “My Uncle Terry,” I had a great crew that was appropriate for the project and they all did a better job than I could have.

My Uncle Terry poster for our graduation screening

My Uncle Terry poster for our graduation screening

The turd polishing metaphor might not apply to all kinds of film. A documentary can get away with a lot more than a fictional narrative because the audience is more willing to forgive. The same exception applies for student films. When a film is experimental, people will probably assume whatever is “wrong” was done on purpose and sometimes narrative filmmakers don’t actually want the suspension of disbelief throughout the whole film. There have been whole movements that reject how Hollywood has shaped the expectations for narrative film such as Dogme 95, started by Lars Von Trier.

However, a traditional (read Hollywood) narrative film has to be perfect in every way to suspend the disbelief of the audience, and the only way to accomplish it is by dividing responsibility among team members you can trust. If one part of the film is bad (doesn’t support the story) then the film is a turd. You can polish that poor line delivery all you want, but it’s still bad. Sorry but it’s true.

I think the above information is well known to many of the experienced filmmakers out there whether or not they learned it through experience the way I did. However, I hope that this modest story of an important lesson reaches someone out there who is like me and helps them succeed at making better films. Filmmaking should not service an ego but should be done for the sake of the project.

Tall, Fit, and Blond.

Everything today is telling me I should write this story. From a Sunday morning girl chat in the kitchen to the front page of Reddit, popularity in school has been on the tip of my tongue. Perhaps it’s the yearly ritual of getting dressed up and finding a party to go to that has everyone reminiscing about times past. It seems like Halloween is a time capsule, and we stumble around in costumes trying to find our friends year after year.

But it’s also October, Bullying-Awareness Month, so I’m going to tell you the story of my school years, and my experience with friends and bullies as I grew up.

Elementary School

When I was in elementary school I was a free-spirited and imaginative child. For the first couple of years this was a fine way to be. I would be more than happy to run off by myself and pretend to be a unicorn, and I even had some friends who would join in. I did tend to stand out from the rest of the class due to my relaxed parents who let me dress myself. My classroom had a rule that students had to wear indoor shoes when inside, so I naturally took the opportunity to wear a pair of wooden clogs that couldn’t go outside… every day. The teacher ended up moving my desk to the carpeted part of the room so I wouldn’t make such a racket.

As you might expect children to do, the kids in my class grew up a bit more every year. However, I continued to be happy playing my imagination games and hiding in bushes for the entire lunch period. Eventually as the other kids in my class took to other interests like sports and talking on the playground, they stopped wanting to play with me and instead made fun of me when I brought my hand-made stilts to school, or threw my ball out-of-bounds and told on me when I went to go find it.

My class had 22 kids, and we all stayed in the same class group every year. The bullying became more intense every year and the teachers were not a huge help in preventing it so as a result, a few children switched into the English program or changed schools every year. My parents finally let me change schools when I was 12 after I came home crying and begging to be moved. By the time I graduated from elementary school, that class only had 4 students left.

I had seen enough movies to know that when you change schools, you reinvent yourself and do a makeover to become the cool kid you always wanted to be but knew the bullies wouldn’t let you. I started wearing my mom’s old blue and green eyeliner thick around my eyes and tried to dress like Avril Levine. At this new school, I like to think I made quite the impression dropping into the class halfway through the school year like some badass kid that got kicked out of school for being too cool. Everybody was nice at first, but then I became closer with a couple of girls who were considered less popular. I noticed that I was starting to get bullied again by certain looks I would get from the popular girls like, “Are you really hanging out with her?”

I tried to stop it by ignoring these girls but it was too late. I had been lumped in with their group. So I decided to make the most of it by being friends with them. We had an interesting relationship, because while we were friends I secretly resented them for making me uncool again after all my hard work. This would come out in the form of put-downs and I would say demeaning things when they would do or say something I thought was uncool. I wasn’t a very good friend.

However, the bullying at this school wasn’t so bad. The kids were generally nicer, and although there was definitely a popular and unpopular clique there wasn’t too much interaction between the groups. Despite this, there were three girls in particular who I thought had made it their responsibility to make sure I never became popular or got to talk to the boys I had crushes on.

These were the days of msn. Friends would add total strangers to their accounts because they were friends of friends at a different school. I had a boy on my msn account that I had never met before but was friends with some of the popular girls. We were chatting and he asked me to describe myself. I thought about how to do that and decided to stick to the facts and keep it basic. “Tall, fit, and blond,” I said. Little did I know it was not the boy on the other side of the screen, but the three mean girls. I meant my description to say that I’m taller than your average 13 year old, I’m not fat, and I have blond hair, but these girls thought I was bragging about myself. For weeks after this I would walk down the hallway and the girls would mock me and flip their hair as they pranced past me saying, “I’m tall, fit, and blond.”

While in the past I may have been hurt by their bullying, for the first time I actually knew and believed that what they were saying as they mocked me was true. So I thought, “Yea, I’m tall, fit, and blond and you are a jealous bitch.” Thus began a turning point in my life. The more the girls said it, the more I believed it and my confidence grew. I started hanging out with some of the nice and popular girls and getting close to some of the boys I liked. I was still friendly with my old friends but we no longer hung out at lunchtime. I was starting to become part of the popular crowd although I never fully felt secure with these new friends. Every day I would approach them at lunch, I was afraid they would have changed their minds about me or that the bullying girls would have told them some rumor that would make them hate me.

I tried to be cool by being bad. I made friends with some neighbors a year older than me and we would sneak alcohol from my parent’s liquor cabinet and drink it at the local community center. I even got a boyfriend a year older than me (and in high school) who kissed me on the cheek. I later learned from old friends that they thought I was “so hardcore.” That was not the image I was going for, but seemed to come along with the lifestyle of these grade 8’s who were in high school and thus were “cool.” This is how I graduated from elementary school at the age of 13, growing in confidence but looking for some piece of identity and circle of friends with whom I could be secure.

The summer of 2003

The summers were an interesting experience for me, as a child who has friends outside of school and no longer feels like they have to be on defense all day. I would go to summer camps, play outside with the boys in my neighborhood, and take summer courses. In 2003, I took a sailing course with my older sister. One of the instructors was 16 and I had a total crush on him. I went through puberty early and was almost fully grown into my height of 5″7′ by 13. By acting more mature like my sister and pretending I knew who Ozzy Osbourne was thanks to the amazing Internet, I became friends with this guy. When the course ended, we would hang out and I met his other friends. Here I was at 13, hanging out with a bunch of boys who had already been in high school for 2 years. These guys were pretty alternative and into heavy metal music, so I got into bands like Rammstein and starting wearing all black. I even tried to dye my hair pink, but my mom wouldn’t let me dye it permanently so I would by wash-out pink dye and put it in my hair every day I showered.

By the time high school came around, I was full-on wanna-be-Goth I didn’t quite understand it, but my cool, older friends were into it so I was into it.

High School

I quickly found out that Goth people were not popular in high school, so I made a change in what was probably under a month and became a “baller girl”. If you don’t know what it means, imagine a “wigger” but a girl. It was basically a gangster-inspired lifestyle that happened to include playing basketball, hence the word “Baller”. I showed up to school in a pink velour tracksuit, wore the Lugs boots that construction workers wear, and shaved a line in my eyebrow. I wore orange makeup to look tanned and had a bling P necklace that I stole from an accessory shop.

14 years old and at the height of my popularity

I found my place in a group of the most popular kids in school and fought tooth and nail to stay there. I even had a girl threaten to beat me up because I was a dating a reform-school boy that she liked. Some of the bullies from my first school ended up being my friends, and we would purposely exclude the kids who wanted to join the popular circle of people talking by cutting them out by standing directly in front of them. I was being cruel, but I saw it as “Eat or be eaten”. In private, I was very nice to everyone and honestly harbored no bad feelings toward anybody. But if one of my popular friends were making fun of someone I liked, I would join in the fun because it was more important for me to be popular than to be nice.

I continued in my “hard-core” ways despite no longer being a Goth kid. I would chug bottles of vodka with my girl friends on the weekends and kiss boys at parties. In this way, I took this way further than the popular kids. This lifestyle eventually drew me away from the popular kids at school and I found a partner in crime who could keep up with me. We would go out together in search for thrills and older boys, and instead of being a “baller” I became a bit punk or a bit alternative or a bit gangster depending on the group we were hanging out with.

After that friend left, I suddenly found myself without any close friends at school. Now I was 16, and I felt I had outgrown popularity and would have more luck finding good friends in those kids that I liked but would ignore because they weren’t popular. I found myself a great group of girls and boys and we would hang out in our special spot in the hallway every day. I made some new friends, and got one of my best friends to this day, Leanne. Through this group, I eventually went through the unavoidable growing pains of finding out who I really was when I took away all the labels I had been sticking to myself over the years.

I like what I found underneath.

When I graduated high school I finished with a clear head and a confidence in myself that was hardened and crystallized by years of fighting to prove I was good enough. While I don’t support bullying and feel very sorry for the pain I  caused others, it made me who I am today. I’m tall, fit, and blond, and proud of it.

Note: While I may have come out from the experience of bullying a stronger person, I don’t think bullying should be something kids have to deal with. I am lucky to have a good life, with great friends and a loving family, and this is probably why I managed to stick it out. Many kids and adolescents become depressed and consider suicide, so please stop bullying if you see it. Give support to those who need it and avoid taking out your insecurities and anger on other people, and others will follow your example.